03-15-2010, 09:21 PM
I am an old IMG. This was my second match and unfortunately I didn't match.
But surprisingly, I am not depressed and not even upset. You guys will think either I am crazy or a person with extraordinary courage. No you are absolutely wrong. I am a very normal person just like you. Last year I went through the same pain and I can't explain how bad I was feeling when I saw my match result last year.
I am a mom with three kids and you guys can't even imagine how hard I tried to do my steps while dealing with a very demanding husband and highly uncooperative in-laws. But with the grace of God I did my steps with decent scores and I thought my hard time has ended but I didn't know that it's just the beginning. When I saw my match result last year, I felt a sharp pain piercing my heart and I felt like I am not alive , just a dead body. I can't even move myself as I had no strength in my body and my eyes were crying continuously. I was scared that I have to face people and hardship of preparing for next year match. I tried even harder this time but still didn't match but unlike last year I am relax. What is the secret? The secret is, every time When
I pray to God for a successful match, I also asked for courage to bear the pain in case of not getting match. For me it's a blessing that even I didn't match but I don't have the pain I had last year. Now I am asking God to give me courage to struggle for next year match. So don't lose hope don't give up, keep faith on God and ask for his mercy. Believe me, he is the only one who can get you out of this painful situation. I am a living example and I am surprise how can a weak person like me is able to bear this pain with courage. Hey guys God is with you , you have to call him. May Allah bless all of you with success soon.
But surprisingly, I am not depressed and not even upset. You guys will think either I am crazy or a person with extraordinary courage. No you are absolutely wrong. I am a very normal person just like you. Last year I went through the same pain and I can't explain how bad I was feeling when I saw my match result last year.
I am a mom with three kids and you guys can't even imagine how hard I tried to do my steps while dealing with a very demanding husband and highly uncooperative in-laws. But with the grace of God I did my steps with decent scores and I thought my hard time has ended but I didn't know that it's just the beginning. When I saw my match result last year, I felt a sharp pain piercing my heart and I felt like I am not alive , just a dead body. I can't even move myself as I had no strength in my body and my eyes were crying continuously. I was scared that I have to face people and hardship of preparing for next year match. I tried even harder this time but still didn't match but unlike last year I am relax. What is the secret? The secret is, every time When
I pray to God for a successful match, I also asked for courage to bear the pain in case of not getting match. For me it's a blessing that even I didn't match but I don't have the pain I had last year. Now I am asking God to give me courage to struggle for next year match. So don't lose hope don't give up, keep faith on God and ask for his mercy. Believe me, he is the only one who can get you out of this painful situation. I am a living example and I am surprise how can a weak person like me is able to bear this pain with courage. Hey guys God is with you , you have to call him. May Allah bless all of you with success soon.