02-05-2012, 12:49 PM
eena91 - 07/27/10 00:42
I am an Indian Girl....I grew up in the US....and when I didnt get into medical school here in the US, my parents sent me to India to do med school there. I somehow got thru med school in India (which was the worst trauma of my life!!). Then I came back to the US 3 years ago...and I have been trying to study for this bloody test since then!!....I have started it again and again ...only to find myself not able to do it. And now I lack the motivation also. I just cannot study anymore in my life. I am still living with my parents....and I have to ask them for money. This makes me feel very bad inside. And sometimes my cellphone minutes go over and i get charged more money on my cellphone bill...and I get yelled at by my dad for that!...He wants me to cut down on my expenses....But I feel I have suffered a lot already in my life. I want to enjoy now. I want to do the things that I missed in my life while I was in med school in India. But I always have to answer to my parents about every dollar that I spent.....and I HATE THAT!!!....I want to earn my own money and to enjoy life. I am interested in the fashion world....Many times I dress myself fashionably and just get some good photographers to take photoshots of me.....and all this costs money ofcourse!!....I love the way I look...I am 5ft 9 inches and am attractive....I have friends who are designers too...and I love their company. I also love the fact that I am a doctor....This tittle has got me respect...so I am not going to shun it!!....After all I AM a doctor. But now I want to relax...and spend the rest of my life enjoying the fashion world. But I have no money.....and for that I have to listen to my parents and that is very upsetting....My dad is getting angry....watching me spend years trying to pass this pathetic test....But my mind is not into it any more...I hate this test...and I get yelled at by my parents a lot becoz they are sick of waiting for it and of supporting me financially. I dont like being dependant on them. I want to earn my own money but there arents any jobs available now. Plz help.....I want to be a doctor....but I am not willing to give up my passion for photography and fashion either. Plz help....what shud i do? I am just so upset...I just got yelled at by my dad and am crying now...I hope u all can understand my problem and guide me . Thanks!
leena91 - 05/08/11 19:33
I just simply dont WANT to study any more in life. I have tried again and again but I am simply not interested in doing this any more. I see all my friends working good jobs and making money and living happier lives than me. After all what am I going to get by doing this? Life will not be easy in Residency either!! By the time I come out of residency I will be in my late 30s - 40!!! My problem is that this profession took everything from my life and did not give me back the peace and inner happiness that I was looking for. And Now I am stuck. I think many times of giving this profession up but people tell me that I will lose the respect of a doctor and that people will consider me as a loser.
I am an Indian Girl....I grew up in the US....and when I didnt get into medical school here in the US, my parents sent me to India to do med school there. I somehow got thru med school in India (which was the worst trauma of my life!!). Then I came back to the US 3 years ago...and I have been trying to study for this bloody test since then!!....I have started it again and again ...only to find myself not able to do it. And now I lack the motivation also. I just cannot study anymore in my life. I am still living with my parents....and I have to ask them for money. This makes me feel very bad inside. And sometimes my cellphone minutes go over and i get charged more money on my cellphone bill...and I get yelled at by my dad for that!...He wants me to cut down on my expenses....But I feel I have suffered a lot already in my life. I want to enjoy now. I want to do the things that I missed in my life while I was in med school in India. But I always have to answer to my parents about every dollar that I spent.....and I HATE THAT!!!....I want to earn my own money and to enjoy life. I am interested in the fashion world....Many times I dress myself fashionably and just get some good photographers to take photoshots of me.....and all this costs money ofcourse!!....I love the way I look...I am 5ft 9 inches and am attractive....I have friends who are designers too...and I love their company. I also love the fact that I am a doctor....This tittle has got me respect...so I am not going to shun it!!....After all I AM a doctor. But now I want to relax...and spend the rest of my life enjoying the fashion world. But I have no money.....and for that I have to listen to my parents and that is very upsetting....My dad is getting angry....watching me spend years trying to pass this pathetic test....But my mind is not into it any more...I hate this test...and I get yelled at by my parents a lot becoz they are sick of waiting for it and of supporting me financially. I dont like being dependant on them. I want to earn my own money but there arents any jobs available now. Plz help.....I want to be a doctor....but I am not willing to give up my passion for photography and fashion either. Plz help....what shud i do? I am just so upset...I just got yelled at by my dad and am crying now...I hope u all can understand my problem and guide me . Thanks!
leena91 - 05/08/11 19:33
I just simply dont WANT to study any more in life. I have tried again and again but I am simply not interested in doing this any more. I see all my friends working good jobs and making money and living happier lives than me. After all what am I going to get by doing this? Life will not be easy in Residency either!! By the time I come out of residency I will be in my late 30s - 40!!! My problem is that this profession took everything from my life and did not give me back the peace and inner happiness that I was looking for. And Now I am stuck. I think many times of giving this profession up but people tell me that I will lose the respect of a doctor and that people will consider me as a loser.
(((((((((((((((((((( throw away these other foreigners, so they have to put up with me and my kind!!!
