04-28-2012, 09:36 AM
Hi guys,
I'm writing to seek advice....
I'm and IMG, I been studying for a while now, mostly on and off. Took Kaplan live lecture classes and listened to some audio Goljian lectures. Although I didn't review all the material before attending a live lecture, I felt like I needed some structure and organization with my studies, but after the program, it was extremely hard to keep up with the pace of self-motivation. I must admit, I fell off the wagon for a while, became so depressed and the whole drama that comes with not wanting to face this exam.
With my family and friends constantly on my back & harrassing me, I decided to re-focus on my work and take a leave of absence from my job. Now, I have been studying and reviewing the Frist Aid along with DIT lectures for the past 5 months. I have been scoring not so great on USMLE World Assessment test... 159 & 168, with NBME scroe of 200. Out of shere desitute and pressure to please my family, job and Friends, and get them off my back, I had paid and picked a date for my test, only to feel so ill-prepared that I had to cancel it and pay for the one time extention to rescheduled for this coming Tuesday.
My dilemma is.... Tuesday is quickly approaching. I really don't want to fail this exam or just pass by the skin of my teeth, nor do I want to waste the $800 all ready invested for this exam. I work as a Lab Tech and l already asked my supervisior for countless extentions on holding my spot so that I can return. The irony of this story is, all this time I have been dreading this exam and was so afraid to face it, but it wasn't until a week ago, although I'm still getting questions wrong on USMLE World, was I beginning to make more connections and starting to see what the questions were really asking for. I feel like I can benefit form another extention of 1 or 2 months to better my score. I'm aware that Kaplan says, not to sit for an exam if you don't feel ready. I'm trying to take everything into account.
Many people have been telling me to go sit for the exam and just see what will happen. It will serve as an experience, so that I can know what to expect the second time around. But Lord only knows, that I don't want to have to sit for this exam again, nor score a below average grade when I feel lik ei could have done better. Yes, maybe I might get an easy batch of questions and maybe not.
This can be just my nerves, but I feel like i have so much left to re-read, re-review and re-study. I've only completed 50% of my U World bank. So lost and So in need of sound advice.....
Does anyone out there understand me?
I'm writing to seek advice....
I'm and IMG, I been studying for a while now, mostly on and off. Took Kaplan live lecture classes and listened to some audio Goljian lectures. Although I didn't review all the material before attending a live lecture, I felt like I needed some structure and organization with my studies, but after the program, it was extremely hard to keep up with the pace of self-motivation. I must admit, I fell off the wagon for a while, became so depressed and the whole drama that comes with not wanting to face this exam.
With my family and friends constantly on my back & harrassing me, I decided to re-focus on my work and take a leave of absence from my job. Now, I have been studying and reviewing the Frist Aid along with DIT lectures for the past 5 months. I have been scoring not so great on USMLE World Assessment test... 159 & 168, with NBME scroe of 200. Out of shere desitute and pressure to please my family, job and Friends, and get them off my back, I had paid and picked a date for my test, only to feel so ill-prepared that I had to cancel it and pay for the one time extention to rescheduled for this coming Tuesday.
My dilemma is.... Tuesday is quickly approaching. I really don't want to fail this exam or just pass by the skin of my teeth, nor do I want to waste the $800 all ready invested for this exam. I work as a Lab Tech and l already asked my supervisior for countless extentions on holding my spot so that I can return. The irony of this story is, all this time I have been dreading this exam and was so afraid to face it, but it wasn't until a week ago, although I'm still getting questions wrong on USMLE World, was I beginning to make more connections and starting to see what the questions were really asking for. I feel like I can benefit form another extention of 1 or 2 months to better my score. I'm aware that Kaplan says, not to sit for an exam if you don't feel ready. I'm trying to take everything into account.
Many people have been telling me to go sit for the exam and just see what will happen. It will serve as an experience, so that I can know what to expect the second time around. But Lord only knows, that I don't want to have to sit for this exam again, nor score a below average grade when I feel lik ei could have done better. Yes, maybe I might get an easy batch of questions and maybe not.
This can be just my nerves, but I feel like i have so much left to re-read, re-review and re-study. I've only completed 50% of my U World bank. So lost and So in need of sound advice.....
Does anyone out there understand me?